Seamstress-in-training!!

Excitement!!! I'm such the pushy mother. :) I know that Little Girl will be 3 in January but as any normal mother would say "she's just so smart and picks things up quickly". So, yesterday I went to JoAnn Fabrics and bought some of those lacing cards (you know, the ones with the holes that you sew string through). It says 3+ years on the box. You know as well as I do, nobody listens to that? She's almost 3 anyway, big deal, buy it. I bought the Disney Princesses one and the Winnie the Pooh set too. Gotta love branding... So I took it home, sat down with her and showed her what to do... She did it! She loved it! She was so focused, it was fun to watch her little mind at work. She finished up her first one and asked for another.... I'm in heaven! Now I just have to wait till she's old enough for me to trust with a real needle.

FAAN (Food Allergy & Anaphylaxis Network)

Hi everyone!

As Halloween comes, the more nervous I become.... NUTS!! UGH! I can't tell you how often in the store I'm just afraid she's going to pick up something with nuts and have a reaction. FAAN (Food Allergy & Anaphylaxis Network) has been a great source of information and comfort for me and my family. Currently FAAN is holding a "Trick-or-Treat for Food Allergy" donation drive to help fund research and education about food allergies. If anyone is interested in donating (it's tax deductible) to FAAN on behalf of my daughter, please click the "Firstgiving" link on my sidebar.

Thanks for your help!
Robin

More toddler talk...

Hubby had sent me this email earlier this week.

Little Girl and I were out on the deck listening to the THS band playing at the homecoming bon fire. She says.

"That's the Blue Devil Band"

"I have a Blue Devil Sweatshirt"

"Decker has a Blue Devil Hat"

"Listen Daddy, they're stomping their feet"

"Look, they have hats on"

To give you an idea of the proximity of the house to the football field is about 1/2 mile with many houses in between. We've taken her to a football game before so we think she remembers them marching in their uniforms. Her memory amazes me. Oh, and Decker is her "boyfriend".

From a toddler's mouth...

... can come some embarrassing things to a parent. Here's a good example. Little Girl will be 3 in January so her vocabulary is quite extensive already. Because of this and her great memory, I am trying my hardest not to let her see me naked. (Hubby and I have been together for 12 years, it's kinda hard to change some habits). Anywho, the other day Hubby was keeping Little Girl busy while I was finishing getting ready. I'm in the process of putting my bra on and I hear her running down the hallway. As soon as she sees me, she stops and cocks her head to the side... "You have elbows?" she says looking at my chest. Needless to say, I was laughing too hard to even correct her.

Fast forward to yesterday. I was buckling her into her car seat when she proceeds to place her hands on my chest... "You have elbows?" Again, I am laughing but I'm able to get out "no honey." "Armpits?" More laughter at a quizzical looking child. What do you tell her? She'll repeat everything. I feel bad but I just ignored her question and changed the topic (which it's very easy to do with her).

"Baby" update...

Today was the follow-up ultrasound. The sacs were still empty and didn't grow. I'm scheduled for a D&C next Wednesday. I'm just very sad. Thanks to everyone for all of your support and prayers. They have been a big help over this 2 week journey.

Love,
Robin

Baby update #1

Today was the ultrasound with the high risk OB. They did find one more, making that 6, however they are only focusing on 3. They believe the others to be blood clots, cysts, or pregnancy tumors? The 3 larger ones are measuring +/- 6 weeks (where as I figure I am 8w5d). How can I be almost 3 weeks different? Anyway, I go back on the 25th for another ultrasound. If there is no fetal pole or heartbeat by that time then a D&C will be the next step. They want to do a D&C because there is too much going on in my uterus to feel comfortable about me going naturally.

So now, I guess I just sit back and wait...

ETA - I did call my regular OB to get my blood results. My beta levels are high, 45,000, showing that I am pregnant. She said that it is high enough to be thinking multiple babies too...I just got used to the fact that I was going to lose a baby, now I have to get used to the fact that my numbers are good and there might be triplets?! Someone up there likes to make my life a little challenging?

Loss for words and emotions

Well, today was ultrasound day and things didn't turn out quite the way we expected. My appointment was at 10 am. As I wait for 20 minutes with that paper sheet over my legs, Hubby and I are talking baby stuff. The Dr comes in and the ultrasound starts. For those of you who haven't experienced this first ultrasound, it's not the one that they show on T.V. with the jelly in your belly... this one's internal, basically a joystick in your hoo-ha... not comfortable. Anyway, the Dr proceeds to twist and turn the wand and had a quizzical look on her face. She then tells us that she sees 3 sacs but no embryos. She asked that we come back in the afternoon to see the u/s tech for a more defined look. That appointment was scheduled for 1:40 pm.

I told Hubby I wasn't ready to go back to work, which was just around the corner. After a quick bite to eat, I dropped him off (we work at the same office) and he informed my boss and his boss of the situation. I then called a girlfriend of mine who had a similar situation a couple years ago. Thankfully she was home and able to talk to me. She was a big help to all of my wandering emotions. She listened to my questions, answered me truthfully and with great information. Thanks Kim for all your help!

I then called Hubby and he had me pick him up. We drove around almost mindlessly running some errands wondering what's going to happen next.

Now it's time for the u/s tech to see what's going on. "Hmm" she says, "I haven't seen anything like this in my 22 years. Were you on fertility treatments?"

"No..." I said. "Dr. saw 3 sacs, do you see more?"

"Yes. But I'm not sure if they are sacs or cysts."

"But you still don't see a heartbeat?"

"No."

Dr's consult... "Um, we're not sure what to do. We see 5 sacs or cysts, none of them viable from what we can tell. I would like to send you a high risk OB to get a second opinion."

"O.K." I mean, what else can I say?

So at this point, I'm waiting till Monday to see what the heck is going on in there. Luckily my ovaries look good...

I'll keep you posted...